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[gen_derfluid]

[ Val's finally on the mend. No longer incoherent enough to need his device taken from him to stop him sending ill-advised texts, no longer quite so emotionally fucked that he's crying at the slightest expression of care... and this still gets him enough it's a close thing on that front, anyway. ]

Thank you, dear, I will tell you if I do. Or at least, I'll try. I'm mostly alright, right now. Kazu has been a darling and made sure of that.

[mistersnikt]

i know it can be tough to ask. [ oh, how intimately he knows. ] don't rush to get better just because you think you have to, though. seriously, recovery takes time. lots and lots of time, and there's good days and bad days.

[gen_derfluid]

I know, I'll try not to but it is hard. I have climbed out of holes like this before, but it is worse for having fallen back down one in the first place. I feel like I've been thrown back to being a teenager and freshly out of my father's house.

[mistersnikt]

well, there's definitely one major difference between then and now, right? you have kazu, so at the risk of sounding cliche, you're not climbing alone.
and, you know, other people care about you here, too. so.

[gen_derfluid]

The idea of not doing it alone is a strange one in itself, but it's starting to settle in. In my, let's say compromised state, I have cried no less than a handful of times just from remembering that there are people in my life now that actually care what happens to me. Who are unlikely to judge me.

[ He knows you care, Akihiro. And it took him a while to realise why he kept crying, honestly, after Barry's little notes first set it off, but now his head is clearing he's starting to pick apart some of the last few days. If nothing else, Val is used to taking long, hard looks as himself. ]