[ Val scrunches his face up more. No, not seeing this through isn't an option, even if he still can't help but grumble, ] Doing it at all barely feels worth feeling this disgusting.
[ But it is, he knows it is, he's just complaining for the sake of complaining, for the sake of letting out some of the agitation of being so helpless, feeling so out of touch with his own body. It's hard not to hit that stage of 'this was why life was better when I was hardly ever truly sober', but it's the fact a part of him is thinking that is only more reason he knows he needs to follow through.
He sighs dramatically, pulls his hand back around so he can uncrumple and re-read the note. Blinks until his eyes dry. ]
...I should never have started drinking in the first place. I always told myself I wouldn't, and then... [ another sigh ] Fine. Let me try eating, I suppose.
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[ Val scrunches his face up more. No, not seeing this through isn't an option, even if he still can't help but grumble, ] Doing it at all barely feels worth feeling this disgusting.
[ But it is, he knows it is, he's just complaining for the sake of complaining, for the sake of letting out some of the agitation of being so helpless, feeling so out of touch with his own body. It's hard not to hit that stage of 'this was why life was better when I was hardly ever truly sober', but it's the fact a part of him is thinking that is only more reason he knows he needs to follow through.
He sighs dramatically, pulls his hand back around so he can uncrumple and re-read the note. Blinks until his eyes dry. ]
...I should never have started drinking in the first place. I always told myself I wouldn't, and then... [ another sigh ] Fine. Let me try eating, I suppose.